Diary of an Honest Naturalista: Week 147

Not long after I returned home from my sister’s house, earlier than I had planned, thanks to Boma’s annoyance, I got a message from Dimeji.

He wanted us to meet somewhere. His message was as neutral as possible that I didn’t even know what to make of it. I didn’t know whether it would be good or bad, so I just braced myself up. After all, I had brought all these upon myself.

So over the weekend, off I went to a neutral venue to see my estranged boyfriend. When I saw him, I wanted to run and disappear into his arms, and tell him how much I have missed him, but how much I have grown without him at the same time. I managed to restrain myself, and maintain my self-composure. Only God knows how this night would end, I told myself.

So we just greeted formally, which was awkward for us both, and then went straight to the point.
”Hi Anna. How are you doing? I’ve missed you.” He started.

“I missed you too, babe.” I replied. “But here we are, so I guess the missing is over.” I said in a matter-of-fact way.

“Look Anna. I’ll go straight to the point. Thanks for understanding that I needed time to sort myself out. What you did to us really hurt me. I know you might be thinking it wasn’t a big deal since you didn’t cheat in reality, but that moment when you couldn’t convince me that you had no feelings for him, my heart broke.”

“I’m sorry.” I said. There was nothing else to say.

“I had never been in such a situation before.” He continued. “So I really didn’t know what to do. I always prided myself in the fact that we were exclusive to each other and very in love with each other despite all we have been through together. How else could I have responded to such a threat? During this break, I thought about you a lot. I also thought about all the other ladies that are around me. I asked myself where you and I are headed. What the future holds for us. Do I want to start all over? With you? or with someone else? Can I even start all over?

"You are not perfect, evidently. I’m not perfect. Neither are the other guys you know, nor the other ladies I know. You and I have been through our ups and downs. We have had a journey, and our story to tell because of it.”

“Anna, are you hearing everything I am saying?”

“Yes,” I responded. “But I’m still waiting for the end point though.”

“Okay. What I am saying is that nothing has changed, despite all that happened. I have had time to reflect on everything that happened. It is a dent in our story, a detour in our journey, but it is still our journey all the same.

“Anna, I still want us to spend our future together. Our plans remain the same. I’m not ready to start all over with someone else. In spite of everything, I still choose you.”

I wanted to do this to his forehead.

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But instead, I just kept quiet and looked at him with a very straight face. I tried not to cry, I tried not to laugh, I tried not to jump for joy or be erratic.

In order to retain my composure, I closed my eyes. The next thing I knew “my lips were parted with Dimeji’s, and we were locked in a full blown kiss, right there in full view of everyone.”

When it was all over, all Dimeji said was “Now, what is the name and number of that guy who tried do take my woman from me? I’m so ready to do some damage to him, like he did to me!”